I’m One of the muses, A common wood nymph roaming around Parnassus, Happy with my little sweet pea. With her delicate, fragrant flowers Carried on long, slim stalks, She captivated me. I ran to her flaming with desire. I am flaming. Burning Blazing with desire. Too hot for my sweet pea. Because she’s so delicate, So delicate for me. As I touch her, she transformed into ashes. I burnt her. And out of a haze, you were formed. Like smoke given out by fire. A fireweed that sprang up in the burnt over area. A replacement, I thought. You quenched my thirst. Suffuse my hunger. My desire. I came to you for a crown And you gave me a kingdom. You made me eat on a golden plate And drink from your cup of diamonds. But like a common pitcher plant, Cut your base open And there you’ll find my body’s remains trapped inside. A pitfall in the middle of the forest. I will name you Venus? The goddess with a seducing brilliant red trap. Open to all beings that needs nurturing. Show your bosom and all will crave for your milk. From a butterfly, you turned me to an ant. When I brushed only slightly against your skin, You closed within an instant. Rigid spines on the margins of you blades interlock tightly. As soon as I was trapped, You digested me. Used me as a nutrient material. I know this is about to last for only a week. By the time your leaf reopens, You’ll be reedy for other sufferers. Trapped inside, I accepted my fate. Then there she came one spring day. My little delicate sweet pea. Now a spring beauty in full bloom. A low perennial herb. With narrow, succulent leaves And loose cluster of white and pink flowers. But your leaf has closed. I cannot escape.

Fangirl: Part 1  


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“Another boring day in office… “

“Ohayou, Ishikawa-san. The president wants to see you in his room.”

”Now, what does he want? We just talked earlier.”

A girl with long, black hair walked slowly towards the room with a large wooden door at the end of the hall. The secretary greeted her politely. She gave out her best smile and went straight inside.

“Ohayou, otousan!” She greeted the older man seated in a large glass table in the middle of the room with her ever energetic tone.

“Ohayou…” The man replied while giving a stern look at the new comer. “How many times have I told you not to call me that while we’re in the office, Rika?” The girl blinked several times before giving a light chuckle after she had seen her father’s smile.

“Gomen President Ishikawa, I forgot…” Rika played along, and went directly towards one of the vacant seats in front of the president. “So, you wanted to see me?”

“Yes, and I’ll go straight to the point. You will be facilitating our branch in Saitama. You’ll stay there for at least a month.” Rika’s eyes went wide. She was shocked but she didn’t utter any word. Any way, it’s not the first time her father surprised her like this. At least it’s much better than the last time her father sent her away. She stayed in Hokkaido for at least three months and helped manage their newly built company to become stable. But in Saitama, it’s already been well established and it can survive on its own. As far as she knew, there’s a really good employee behind that branch’s success.

“Hai, I’ll go there as soon as possible… but” Rika paused for a while. Her father always sent her to one of their branch whenever there’s a problem, it’s newly built or it’s on the brink of closing. But the Saitama branch was one of their strongest branches, “but why are you sending me there? As far as I know, it’s doing well in the market.”

“Well, there’s no problem. I just want you to check it and at the same time, learn some new things. It’s one of the best branches of the Ishikawa Group of Companies, so this time you will be there not as a facilitator but just like a newly acquired employee learning from the company. Of course, there will be occasional meetings and other office works but just let them handle it, alright?” Mr. Ishikawa said warmly. He was glad that he had a very helpful, compassionate and intelligent daughter. Even though he wasn’t blessed with a son, Rika will definitely become the president of his company without any comments from the other stock holders.

“Hai, it’s good to be the follower sometimes. So, when will I go there?”

“Two days from now. I guess that time is enough for you to pack your things?”

“Hai, it’s better than the last time when you told me that I was going to Hokkaido the next day.” Rika laughed. He father can be really sadistic sometimes. The president just smiled at her daughter. Rika stopped laughing and stood up. “So, then, I’m going back to work now. I’ll just do my packing when I got home. Have a good day… “

Rika immersed herself with all the paper works that morning. When it comes to work, she can get pretty serious about it. But there’s one thing her father or other members of their company doesn’t know about her. All they know was that she graduated Magna Cum Laude in her college degree three years ago and she’s helping the company even though she’s still in high school before. Only her best friend knows what she’s thinking inside… and what her real personality is? Its 5 minutes before lunch. She’s sorting her papers on the table and transferred it to a nearby desk. She went to her small refrigerator and got herself a salad and some spring rolls for lunch. Rika put it on her table beside her laptop. She was about to type something on the keyboard when her phone rang.


“Rika-chan! I’ve uploaded my new fic. It’s just a one shot but be sure to comment on it!” Came a girly voice. Rika smiled. It was her best friend; the one who introduced her to this kind of world when they were in high school. At first, she thought of it as a ‘balancing agent’ to her busy life. Studying hard and helping in her father’s company at such a young age is hard. She needed something to help her lessen the stress and Ayumi showed her that. As the years pass by, that certain ‘world’ became a part of her. She never thought of it as a way to lessen her stress but as a part of her life. Her day wouldn’t be complete without it; the world of blogging and fandom.

“Sure! I was about to log in. Hey!!!! I’ve downloaded something!!!” Rika gave a suppressed squeal. It’s already noon and her secretary is on her lunch break but she can’t let down her guard.

“What is it?”

“You’ve heard about the latest concert of the ‘Three-Tums’ last week right?”

“Yes, I know that its Tanaka’s birthday special but I still didn’t read what happened in that concert.”

“Well, Maki Goto surprised Reina!!! When Sayumi and Eri was singing happy birthday, Maki went out from the back stage and gave Reina a gift. You should see how Eri glared at Maki!!! KYAAAH!!!! It’s pure jealousy!!!”

“EYAAAHHH!!! NICE!!!!” Ayumi squealed simultaneously with her best friend. Before, she was the one who’s so into this kind of fandom. She was the louder type of fan and Rika, the subtle type. They began from anime and then it evolved into J-pop. And now, it was the other way around. Her friend developed her ‘squealing’ voice so now she’s louder than her. And she let her be, for it’s the only way Rika was enjoying her childhood youth that was snatched by the company. She might look mature but deep inside, there’s still the little child who wants to have fun and have a normal, happy life. “Ahahaha, but sad to say, you know that I’m not a TanaKamei fan. I’m more of a TanaShige fan… but it’s cool. Why was Maki there? She’s a soloist from Avex Trax right?”

“I have a theory! You know that Yuki Goto and Koki Tanaka were from Johnny’s right? Maybe Koki told Yuki that his younger sister idolizes his older sister. And that’s why Maki decided to go in that concert.”

“Hey, you’re good! It’s possible… I smell something…”

“What?” Rika queried.

“A new fic!!!! Ahahaha… I’m going to make a love triangle between those three!” Ayumi excitedly squealed.

“And how about Sayumi? She’s your favorite right?”

“Hmmm… How about making it a Maki-Reina and Sayu-Eri fic then? Ahahahahaha!!!” Rika removed the receiver from her ear for ten seconds. That’s the rate that Ayumi’s incoherent words last every time she thought of new ideas for writing a fic. She took a bite from her salad and logged in on her blog site. She quickly clicked the linked to Ayumi’s blog account.

“I’m going to read your entry now. OHHH!!!!! It’s OhYass!!! HARHARHAR!!!” Rika laughed like a psychotic killer over the phone. She didn’t care whether her secretary will hear her or not. She’s so into her own world right now to be thinking of anything.

“Hahaha… I know you will like it… Comment!!! I need a really good evaluation from that!!!”

“Sure… I’ll give you a ‘novel’ type of comment. I’ll call you when I get back home ok?”

“Ok! Happy reading!” Rika put the receiver back. Her friend was a good writer. Even though she was gifted with intelligence, what she lacks was an artistic mind. Surely, she can write but it lacks some elements of a good story. Ayumi was a vivid writer. Whenever she reads her story, she can easily visualize what was happening in the story as if she was watching it from the television. But her story? It looks like a high school student wrote it. She can’t describe the scenes well no matter how hard she tried. The readers can easily see where her story was heading; her story was predictable. That’s why always gave her ideas to her best friend so that she can write it better. She occasionally writes fics but it’s mostly one shots and in the comedy genre. Rika was satisfied with just reading and giving comments as of now.

When she finished reading, and giving her ‘novel’ comment to her best friend, she checked other forums of her favorite girl group. She was having the time of her life reading the two groups, namely the TanaKamei and TanaShige, fighting over a forum. She’s a TanaKamei fan but she won’t do things like that. She’s satisfied being a ‘lurker’ of that forum. Rika glanced over the clock near the door.

“Oh, lunch break is almost over… I better check whether she has a new fic or not.” Rika typed in the address bar, her favorite writer’s URL. She was overjoyed when she saw a new entry.

“I’ll just copy this! I’ll read it at home.” Rika opened the notepad and pasted the text in there. She saved it and logged out of the web. She stood up and washed her plates and utensils before going back to her desk to resume her work.

“I’ll better remove those foods before I’ll go away.

Rika went straight to her room when she arrived in their house. Her father thought that she will pack her things right away but he was wrong. Rika was excited to read the new fic of her favorite writer. She locked her door and opened her laptop. She clicked ‘Documents’ and opened the file named: ‘new fic’. Rika finished it quickly and called her best friend.

“Ayu!!! My favorite writer has a new fiiiiiiiiiiiccccccc!!!”

“I guess it’s a TanaKamei fic right?”

“YES!!! How did you deduce that?” Rika curiously asked.

“Well, it’s easy, your tone is different. You have a high energy when it comes to TanaKamei and OhYass fics than in other pairings.”

“Ooh, is that so? Anyways, the story’s great.”

“It always is…” Ayumi cut off. “So, what’s the story this time?”

“It’s a TanaKamei version of Taiyou no Uta, but of course... there are differences though she just uploaded chapter 1.”

“And? Have you already commented? You’re always giving me lengthy remarks but you’ve been following that writer for three years now and you still haven’t said anything?”

“I’m satisfied being a lurker.”

“C’mon! Sometimes, writers’ write because they know that there are people who reads their stories. Others, like me for example, just write what we want to express. We don’t care whether someone or nobody will read them.”

“But you always require me to comment on your work.” Rika sarcastically cut in.

“That’s different! It’s because most of my works are based on your ideas. I was just checking whether what I wrote is close to the story inside your mind. Your stories are wonderful. You just need to express them more. It will take some time. Remember, practice makes it perfect!”

“Sure, I’ll practice more. Oh by the way,” Rika remembered something she should have said earlier, “I’m going to Saitama two days from now. I’ll stay there for at least a month. Would you want to go shopping with me tomorrow? That is, if you’re free.”

“Hai, I’m free after lunch. Let’s meet in the usual place.”

“Ok, I’ll pack my things now. See you tomorrow!”


Rika didn’t move from her position. She looked at the large bag near her cabinet and sighed. She’s not in the mood to pack her things right now. She decided to do it after dinner. For now, she will do what Ayumi’s saying to her. She will try to comment on someone else’s story. She re-read again the story from the notepad.


“She looks like a minor no matter how I look at her. I’m going to get her.” The officer released the lock of his seatbelt and opened the car door. There’s a curfew for minors; they must be inside their homes from midnight until 4 in the morning. Those who will not comply will be arrested. A much older looking policeman seating on the other seat tried to stop the leaving officer.

“Wait! Leave her alone. Her auntie informed us before about her situation.”

“What situation?” The young officer seemed interested in what his sempai will tell him.

“I forgot about it… but… she can only come out at night. She has a certain kind of sickness, something like that.”

“Ohhh…” The young officer trailed off; his eyes were watching the young lady dribbling and shooting the ball at the basket.

The young girl remained at the court until the wee hours of the morning. She was drenched in sweat as she tried to catch up her breath. The girl went to the nearby bench where her bag was located. She rummaged her things inside it and got her towel and her water jug. She emptied her fourth water jug in one sitting and wiped her face after that. The girl looked at her watch; it’s almost sunrise. She put all of her things inside her bag and stood up to go home. There’s no need to rush, her home is the two-storey house near the hill where the court can be clearly seen from her room.

When she arrived inside her room, the girl immediately walked towards her window. She can see that the sun was starting to rise. Her eyes quickly wandered towards the court that she left. She waited patiently for ‘that’ person to come. She pulled down a special cover on her windows as the sun rose higher on the sky. Her eyes widened with anticipation as she saw the person that she’s waiting for. She watched silently over her window the girl who was using the court she left earlier. She smiled inwardly as the girl gets frustrated over missed shots or getting happy whenever her three-pointers go in the basket.

She looked up at the shining sun. She always dreamt that she’s playing her favourite sport with that girl under the sun. Her smile vanished. That day will never come for her. The girl that she’s watching already went on her own way. She stood up and went back to her bed to lay her tired body. She’ll wake up when the sun already disappeared from the sky.

“Konnichiwa!” A girl wearing a uniform said after getting inside the house. It’s not her house but she considered it her ‘second’ home for she always comes here to visit her best friend. The lady just smiled and continued with her painting.

“Hey… you’re early today. Did you skip your last subject?”

“No, even though I wanted too because she’s really boring. Something came up and she dismissed us early.” The girl replied. She walked towards the lady wearing a colorful apron; thanks to the different paint marks on her white apron, and looked at the canvass. “Sugoi! You’re really good at painting nee, aunt Kaori…”

“Thank you, Sayumi. Now, go up and check whether she’s awake. I need to focus here.” The girl nodded and went upstairs. She went directly to the door on the left side of the staircase. She opened the door slowly, making sure not to make any sound. She closed it and tip-toed her way towards the bed where her sleeping friend lies.

“Oi! Wake up sleepy head!!!” The girl jumped over the figure under the sheets and put all of her weight on it.

“MOU!!! Shige-san!!! You’re heavy!”

“Hahaha… gomen.” The girl moved away from her still drowsy friend. “Come on Eri! The sun had already set so let’s have fun!” When Sayumi saw that her friend still wanted to visit dreamland, she pulled out the covers and grabbed her friend by her feet. “C’mon, I don’t want to do this to you but you’re forcing me to do it!”

“Sayu… I’m still sleepy… Please… STOOOPPP!!!” Eri was about to close her eyes when Sayu pulled her. She grabbed some of the sheets but it’s not helping her at all. Sayumi’s pulling her out of her bed and then a loud crash was heard.

“Itai… You’re really mean!” Eri sat up on the floor. Thankfully, her bed was somewhat low so it’s not that painful.

“Hai!” Sayumi answered using her cutesy voice. “ Gomen but I just did that because you’re wasting our precious time! Let’s go out and play.”

“It’s Saturday tomorrow, you don’t have any classes. You can stay up late.”

“I plan on sleeping early this night for my beauty rest.” Eri raised her eyebrow on her friend. She can see that her friend was just joking. She might be narcissistic but Sayumi will do anything for her; even skip her precious beauty rest just to spend some time with her best friend.


Rika was looking forward on the next chapter. She watched Taiyou no Uta last summer and she knew that the next scene will be her favorite; that is, if ‘she’ will include that cute part or her version will be different. Rika logged in on her blog account. She will comment to that author for the first time in three years.

Charmy: Hi! I’ve been lurking in your site for the last three years. I love the fics that you’re writing specially the TanaKamei ones. Your latest installment is cool. I hope you include the scene where ‘Eri’ will chase ‘Reina’ (the guy). It’s my favorite part. Can’t wait for the next chapter! Great job!

Rika pressed the ‘post’ button. It’s really short compared to what she’s been writing to her friend but at least, she made a comment. She was smiling inwardly for she knew that her best friend will treat her tomorrow because of the ‘milestone’ she achieved.

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